Another Day in Paradise.

What a Morning. I woke up to the kids screaming and carrying on and Clifton passed out on the couch. Needless to say I got up and started breakfast for the kids and he went to bed in the bedroom. I didnt get any sleep I went to be at 2 AM and woke back up at 7 AM. I am almost out of smokes and gas for the car and we have no milk for the kids. We wont have money till like Tuesday hopefully. I guess we will have to see if we can get money off his mom today that will be fun. All she ever does is bitch about us well unless we have money or something to offer her. She claims she wants to help us but when we need help she dont want to do and she screams and yells at us and tells us we dont love her all we do is use her and blah blah blah. I hate asking for help I just wish we had enough money that we didnt have to ask anyone that people would ask us for help. I don't think that will ever happen but I keep on hoping and praying. I just wish people would see that we are trying really really hard to do it all ourselves, But all they see is us failing, Like they want to see that happen to us because maybe it makes them feel better that someone is worse off than they are. I Guess if I wouldnt of had a child at 18, or if I would have tried harder for my education , or even married a rich guy, Maybe just maybe I would have had a better life, But all in all I love being a mother there is never a dull moment. I guess its the only thing in my life I have NEVER nor will I EVER give up on. Being a mother is my drive in life, My drive to do right and stay straight on lifes path for us.