Another Day in Paradise.

What a Morning. I woke up to the kids screaming and carrying on and Clifton passed out on the couch. Needless to say I got up and started breakfast for the kids and he went to bed in the bedroom. I didnt get any sleep I went to be at 2 AM and woke back up at 7 AM. I am almost out of smokes and gas for the car and we have no milk for the kids. We wont have money till like Tuesday hopefully. I guess we will have to see if we can get money off his mom today that will be fun. All she ever does is bitch about us well unless we have money or something to offer her. She claims she wants to help us but when we need help she dont want to do and she screams and yells at us and tells us we dont love her all we do is use her and blah blah blah. I hate asking for help I just wish we had enough money that we didnt have to ask anyone that people would ask us for help. I don't think that will ever happen but I keep on hoping and praying. I just wish people would see that we are trying really really hard to do it all ourselves, But all they see is us failing, Like they want to see that happen to us because maybe it makes them feel better that someone is worse off than they are. I Guess if I wouldnt of had a child at 18, or if I would have tried harder for my education , or even married a rich guy, Maybe just maybe I would have had a better life, But all in all I love being a mother there is never a dull moment. I guess its the only thing in my life I have NEVER nor will I EVER give up on. Being a mother is my drive in life, My drive to do right and stay straight on lifes path for us.

Okay Now we Are Ready

Okay I have just signed up for that google adsene. I hope it really works. I had a pretty normal day. The Kids where up at 7 in the morning. They are all asleep right now. Clifton has to work till 2 int he morning so i guess its another morning by myself. I hate it he works his butt off and still we don't have enough to make it from pay to pay. I'm trying so hard to find a way to make money and right now I cant afford a babysitter so I am looking for anyhting I can do at home. Tommorrow I will get up and help Keyaira (thats my 5 yr old ) with her family project for school she has to make a christmas tree that will be cool. Its almost december and its sad to say I havent even bought anything for christmas yet, but I can't even keep the bills paid let alone by a bunch of toys. I know they would be happy with anything, But I would't feel happy just getting them anything you know. I hopw that anyone that ever reads my blogg will like it and let there friends know about it. You can leave comments and stuff so feel free to comunicate with me I am willing to pretty much answer anyhting I can. Well Off to bed I will be lucky to get any sleep.

Nice to Meet you

Hi Everyone, this is my first time blogging. I will introduce myself I am Mashaun I am a 23 year- old woman with three children. I have a 5 yr old girl a 4 yr old girl and a 1 yr old boy. I had my fist child a 18, second at 19 and the third just recently. I have been married and now divorce. My husband was an abusive man and I finally broke away. I will tell more of that story later. I am currently living in the projects and I am unemployed. No I am not sum welfare bum. Its soon to be Christmas and the kids are very excited. The Girls want everything they see. I am currently with my boyfriend clifton which You will hear alot of. He works at Wendys and has no education nor does he want to get one, He doesnt have a license, He is sometimes selfish, Other times he can be so sweet. I am hoping to have alot of young women that want to have kids reading my blog cause let me tell you it is HARD. Even other mothers that just understand and relate. I hope to make sum money off this blog cause boy do I need the money as I am sure everyone can. I will talk to you all some more later ttfn